I guess is just one of the few ways i can vent. So just pass this up and don't bother... its not worth your time.

As of recent I've fell further into depression. I cant sleep, eat, or even think straight anymore. Its been hard for a few months and only getting harder as I feel more and more alone. The only thing that i want is a companion. Someone who be beside me and love me. Someone that I can open up to and someone who trusts me enough to open up to me. I want to be there for them as well. Be their shoulder to cry on and be there for them whenever they need me no matter what. Its only gotten harder as I've had to endure knowing that the only person that i had ever hoped all this for has moved on and to other guys. Knowing shes been with another guy only chews on my heart more and prevents me from sleeping even more. I just lay here in my bed holding a pillow longing for her to want to be with me again, to taste her lips again, even though i know that it will never happen. So I guess ill just have to sit here and smile for those that look in as they pass by, but whatever.

I guess all this is just too much to ask for. I've looked and looked and cant find anyone else. Some have told me that I'm too young and need to enjoy life while I'm still young. This is the only thing that makes me happy though, I don't give a shit about anything else.

Well I guess im done venting...